Day 121

Monday 19^th

Today was once again day of class and work. It’s a Monday, so it’s tough getting through them. After classes I went back to the gym for a second day in a row. I started going back yesterday and I am sore as heck. However, its important to start to up again, there will always be excuses for not going, so I just got to start up suck it up through the first few rough days. I forgot to mention yesterday that I also went to Church again. Here I realized something else about life and God. Some may call me naïve or idealistic, but I believe that there is a better world out there. I believe that this better world is built upon truth, love and prosperity for all. I think there is a better life out there, one free of disease, hate, violence, fear, pride, selfishness, indifference. I believe that there is a life where there is true happiness found in the bonds of relationships between the brotherhood of mankind, where we know truth and freedom. I don’t know if this better life is attainable in the material world, but I believe that we each have a responsibility to try and build this Kingdom of Heaven on earth.

I realize this is very poorly worded and described, and I think that might be because I am very tired at this moment, but I also thinks it has to do with a general denigration of my English skills in my time here. For one, my spontaneous speaking ability has become more limited and my writing quality has also decreased. I can’t put coherent sentences together anymore. I am not sure if its because I don’t practice enough as the only writing I really do is this fast as possible blog or if it is because I have become so used to Arabic. I hope it’s the later, but I feel it’s the former. More importantly I hope my ability to speak and not sound like a dumbass comes back.