Day 128

May 27th

Well this class year is not ending with a bang but more a sizzle. I think its partially attributed to the fact that when I am done with finals, I am not going home. This means that this does not really feel like finals. Also the fact, that school has never really picked up, its hard to believe its over. So when I finished my Arabic test, it felt quite anticlimactic. I thought to myself, "this is it, class is over?" And the answer was, yes, I had just turned in my last Arabic final in my collegiate career. Although I am not done with the language it feels kind of weird to be done, considering Arabic has been a staple of my college life since second semester freshmen year. It was also quite sad to see our class go. I think everybody kind of felt the same way, as we were all sitting around afterwards, looking at each other, wondering is this really it, is this an end to the "tribe" as we liked to call ourselves. I mean I really liked the people in our class, and I hope to see them in the future. There are some really special people at this university and I hope that goodbye now, is not goodbye forever. But as my roommate says, if you go into Middle Eastern studies, chances are I will see the same people, as the pond is not that big.
Today has consisted of studying for my Art Test tomorrow. It should be a bruiser. I am kind of tired of walking out of these tests feeling unsure about the test. I would much rather walk away thinking I annihilated the test. But as I have also learned, there are more important things than having good grades, like having upstanding morals and long-lasting relationships. I think I learned this lesson at the end of senior year, and I am not sure I will ever learn it for good until I let go of my obsession with going my best. But perhaps I can strike a better balance. We shall see.